Adulting never be easy

 Assalamualaikum guys! How are you?? I hope that you guys in a good condition okay. Sebab dalam pandemic mcm ni confirm rasa pasif gila kecuali yang kerja dia dah masuk office. hehehe. So i just wanna share something yang i rasa mcm sebenarnya takde apa sangat la pun. But still it affect myself a little bit. Terkesan jugak lah even sikit pun. Cuma taktau la nak explain mcm mana the real situation. Sbb agak tiba tiba jugak. Haaaa jeng jeng mesti pelik kan entah apa la yang i cuba nak sampaikan ni.

Okay mcm ni la. Semua pernah mengalami fasa perpisahan dengan bff korang, especially bila masing masing dah ada kerja lepak tu confirm la jarang. Then bila dah besar mcm ni masing masing memang akn focus life masing masing. Yes aku faham. Untuk kisah i sekarang, we both memg rapat. Nak katakan selalu jugak la keluar. And also we both have a bf. So faham jela kalau busy pun. Cuma taktau la i patut rasa terkilan atau tak, when we share something like very precious moment, she doesnt feel the same as me. Like excited, happy or whatsoever. I am so fucked up. So sebenarnya i ni tak bagi apa apa makna la dalam hidup dia? Macam tu. I know everyone is busy. Sumpah i faham. But can you imagine, bila kita cuba share sesuatu yang kita rasa amat lah berharga kan, tapi dia diam tak respond tp dekat instagram ada story. Sedih tak sedih? Yes i kalau boleh tak nak fikir mcm mcm. Tak nak fikir lebih lebih. Tapi disebabkan i ternampak story dia i speechless. Terus i takde mood and masih berfikir lagi apa sebenarnya salah i? 

Actually boleh je nak cakap kan bgtau kalau ada terasa ke dgn i. Entah la taktau nak explain mcm mana. Sebab ni soal hati and perasaan. Cukup la selama ni i dah byk kali kena betray, orang dengki. I dah cuba utk kecilkan circle i. So i agak menung jugak lah bila jadi mcm ni. Yela tak expect ending dia mcm ni. I akn cuba accept slow slow walaupun susah sebab people come and go. 

Mungkin nampak i ni mcm budak budak lagi kan, but i am very professional person. Lets discuss if we have something yang tak settle. Ws tak bluetick, kat group tak seen. thank you so much. Tapi i decide just let it be. Cause i know, lagi i spam lagi serabut. So better i diam and buat hal sendiri. Then conclusion dia i yang overthinking lah. Its okay i used to be. Dah biasa dah kena mcm ni daripada dulu. Dulu bestfren sendiri rampas bf, besfren sendiri palau i tanpa sebab musabab yang kukuh, main dia semua sebab dengki. I buat hal i sendiri pun still ada orang nak dengki. Hahahahah taktau nak sedih ke nak rasa bangga. Tapi memg i stress gila la waktu tu kan. Like im all alone no one with me survive sendiri nak luah taktau kat siapa. Literally memg sorang je. Kadang rasa takut nak luah semua benda kat org yang kita percaya sbb sometimes i rasa akan ada satu masa dia akn betray kita. Entah la. 

Im a kind of person bila i tahu orang bercakap pasal i, i akan triggered gila. Like, i tak sentuh diorg, kenapa you guys nak berckp pasal i, haaa macam tu la lebih kurang. Cause ive been there, when the moment one of my friend came to my room(waktu ni kat kolej) and she told me someone talked behind me. Mula mula tu i mcm malas nak ambik port pun sbb ive got a lot of tests and assignments need to be settled that week tp tula she keep on telling me "ohh takyah tahu la zaf" haaa kau rasa igt aku tak nak tau ke bila dia dah ckp mcm tu. Lagi orang kata takyah lagi kita nak tau kan. So i was like, haaa bagi tau jelah kan siapa and apa yg diorg cakap. But i cant tell lah what was that. Just that main point dia, selama ni diorg just fake in front of me. Nampak mcm takde apa kan, tp sebab kita dah byk sgt tolong depa, tp ini yang i dapat. Sumpah tak fair gila untuk i. One night tu memg i nangis gila la. Satu pun i tak boleh focus. Pergi faculty, masuk kelas, memg rasa kosong sangat. Tapi depan classmate i memg act like nothing happen. So diorg memg tak dpt detect i tgh ada problem. 

Sumpah penerimaan semua moment tu memang pedih and sakit sangat. Sampai i rasa sesak nafas. Sebab terlampau sakit. I am not deserve all of that. Terus rasa homesick nak balik rumah. Sebab i memg jarang balik kampung kalau cuti. Kadang sebulan sekali je balik sebab rumah memg dekat je. Sebab tak nak susahkan mak ayah utk ambil. Bus not provided at there yang direct ke rumah i. So memg kena pick up. And i pulak yang agak active so its not a big deal pun la kalau jarang balik. Tapi tipulah tak rindu kan. 

I ingat time sekolah je orang duk dengki mendengki ni, bila masuk kolej lagi banyak rupanya. Sebab fikir time sekolah tak matang lagi kan. Rupanya yang dah tua bangka pun masih belum matured sepenuhnya. 

Okay la stop la kot sampai sini. Orang kata, let bygone be bygone. So here we are! Just stay strong and always have faith!

Sayonara!

7/7/2021

     Assalamulaikum guyss! Haluuuu cumuaaaaa hahahha kay guys i feel like i wanna share something interesting here. Ada apa dengan tarikh 7/7/2021 ni eh?? Hahahaha i never expect to meet an amazing guy. I never thought to be happy like this. I never thought to be loved like this. Semua ni happen tanpa dijangka. Betul la, bila kita ubah diri kita jadi lebih baik, so kita akan dapat jugak someone yang baik yang mcm kita nak. Saat aku mengenali insan ini aku tak pernah rasa utk jadi diri sendiri sepenuhnya. Once we love ourself, baru kita boleh sayang orang lain. Lepas aku broken sebelum ni, aku belajar utk sayang diri sendiri dulu. Sbb aku mengambil masa yang agak lama untuk move on. Until i met this great guy and i love him so much. Nama? Nama dia Apat zaki bukan nama sebenar hahahaha rahsiaaa aaaa mana boleh bagitau. Aku terpanggil utk menulis about him because i think the way our meet each other look so fuuny even  benda tu common je. Daripada like video tiktok follow twitter boleh jadi kekasih hahaha skema tak skema lantak situ. And now i feel so lucky to have you sayang. Nampak mcm i tak sweet tapi deeply from my heart i really love you. I deserve this. I deserve to be happy like this. I always pray to Allah supaya Allah pertemukan seseorang yang boleh hargai aku. And byk lagi tapi tak nak cakap kat sini tak surprise. Lepas tawen aaaa heehehhe. Yes nobody is perfect so do i. We grow to be much better together. 

At the moment when we be transparent, time tu la i feel like you are the one yang terlalu jujur dengan i. I dont know how to say sayang, but you are totally different. I tak expect i dapat seseorang yang i memang mintak pada Tuhan. But you are not mine officially yet but soon in shaa Allah. You garang, you sweet at the right moment, you good looking, you soft spoken at the right time, you are nice, you are such a perfect guys i think! Paling i tak boleh you memang ada keberanian utk tegur aurat i directly. Benda ni la yang i paling nak utk bakal suami i ecehhhhh hahahahah. Mungkin you rasa benda tu biasa or common but for not. Its not common sayang. Tak semua orang akan berani tegur as your way tegur i. 

Cara kita layan each other pun mcm dah kenal lama je. Mcm dah 8 tahun bercinta hahahaha padahal haaa kejap je baru. Tu orang kata jodoh ni tak kira dah lama kenal ke atau kejap. Tapi tula tu semua rezeki masing masing kan. Allah dah tetapkan dah. Allah dah susun elok dah takdir masing masing. Just kita je. Cara kita accept everything. Sorry to say, i love this man so much. I hope that Allah always protect him wherever he at. 

Tak banyak yang boleh di share cukup sekadar aku nak bgtau yang i love him so much and i would do anything for him. Guys tak pernah jumpa guys! Tapi sebenarnya benda ni la nanti lagi indah bila lepas kawin aaaaaa gitu hahahahah May Allah ease our journey. Road to halal kateko. In shaa Allah. Apa apa pun Allah sebaik baik perancang. Dia lagi tahu tersurat dan tersirat. Semoga baik baik aja deh. And Allah pun tahu yang sebelum ni masing masing pernah rasa sakit, pernah broken, pernah rasa tak dihargai. We are at the same shoes actually. So we both know how it felt. Bila kita rasa kita dah click dgn someone tu, dia auto selesa ya. Keluar perangai sebenar pun takdak hal. Boleh tolerare. Annoying tu biasa and pada aku benda tu lagi mengeratkan kot. Cehwahhhh hahahaha. 

Semoga apa yang kita rancang will going smoothly in shaa Allah. Sebab takut juga ya bila fikir pasal future ni. Nak kawin memg la seronok, tanggungjawab tu ha jangan lupa lak. Aaaaa gituu!!!!

I love you my man Apat Zaki :*

Ya Sudahlah :*

Sudah lama kita tidak bertemu!

 Hai Assalamualaikum guysssss ya Allah kapan yaaa terakhir aku menjejaki dalam dunia blogger ni hahaha rasanya ni pestime ye jarak masa yang terlalu lama utk aku keep on track utk menulis. Ini pun tah mcm mana boleh rasa nak bukak balik blog ni and menaip. So how are you guys? *cakap kat diri sendiri hahahah padahal mana ada sesapa pun yg reach blog ni kalau aku tak share. Hmm takpaaa boleh je nak acah twitfemes igfamous artis and so on ehhh diri kita bukan orang lain. Make yourself proud haaaa tibaahhhh! Okay disebabkan mcm aku punya sekarang ni asyik rasa nak meluahkan and maybe byk sgt small voice daripada dlm hati aku so i just want to point out sikit la. Nak baca silakan, tak nak baca haa dah la tutup jela takyah scroll okay peace yow!!!

Ehhh aku pun dah tak reti nak menulis sgt dah haa ayat confirm mcm keling ni tunggang langgang tp takpela paham kan la sendiri. hhahahah annoying doh kau ni zaf!

So nak jadikan cerita la kan, i have a friend from diploma la kan. Okay ceni, aku jenis tak kisah kawan dengan siapa pun tak kisah la kau kaya ke miskin ke not good looking ke pandai ke tak ke, ye aku kwn je mcm biasa aku tak memilih. Bukan bermaksud dgn mafia pun aku kawan tak tak, aku jenis easy going and aku suka cari kawan baru. So kwn aku sorang ni jenis yg insecure dgn aku 24/7 tau aku jadi rimas la. Aku kalau jahat aku blah dah tp sebab sayang member kan. Sampai la satu masa tu dia mcm jauhkan diri daripada aku. Aku cam pelik dah la apesal kan, aku ada buat salah besar ke or tersalah ckp yang aku tak sedar ke. Until one day, aku tanya la kau kenapa ada problem ke, then that time la dia ckp dia malu la apa la aku cam whattttt????!!! Aku tak boleh brain doh. Kita kan, kalau ikhlas berkawan kau tak pikir tu semua. Aku jadi bengang jugak la. Then aku slow talk baik baik. Sorry aku tak boleh nak ckp sini in details. Jadi aku simpulkan, sebenarnya bila kita berkawan kau takkan pikir pun rupa dia ke apa ke yang penting hati. Aku jadi serba salah la bila dia dah rasa mcm tu. Dia mcm sama ada kau nak teruskan atau pun tidak. Okay dia sebab soal hati tau, kalau kau nasihat byk mana pun then dia still tak boleh terima noting much you can do la kan. Kau doakan jela yang terbaik utk dia. Tapi bila pikir balik dah byk kot susah senang sesama. Like, takkan biar mcm tu je. Pernah sekali bergaduh teruk gila sebab apa, sebab dia marah kat aku tp pergi post kat ig story. Then i point out la whats wrong with you, ada problem dgn aku face with me not on there. Baru la dia mcm luah everything. Haahaha i was like aduhhhhaiiii!! Terus rasa speechless. 

Aku takleh bila aku dah nampak something yg memg exactly about me aku direct je terus. Boleh nak gossip pasal aku tapi asalkan jangan sampai aku tau. Aku jenis direct je. Tak puas hati ckp meh sini. Aku akn defend diri aku selagi mana benda tu betul kalau salah ye aku akn minta maaf time tu jugak. Well life ni simple je actually. Dah salah kan yeee minta maaf jela. Takdenya la aku nak pusing sana sini dgn ego bagai eyyy buang masa je la mcm tu. Byk lagi benda lain yang aku nak pikir. Senang je kwn dgn aku ni, tp hg buat taik hg siap la! Nak dengki pun silakan tp jgn sentuh aku la. Benda yang takde tiba tiba nak diadakan. Haaaa sudahh, memg jolok sarang tebuan lah hahahah Aku kalau boleh tak nak point out pun isu ni tapi sebab aku cam tak faham kenapa. Ohya maybe la kan sebab aku ni jenis sentimental punya orang. Haaaa takpala zaf. Yang penting kau tak buat org. Kau buat hal kau ja la. 

Eh sakit tau hilang kawan ni berbanding putus cinta haaa gentle cakap. Aku ni daripada sekolah rendah dah kena betray pedehal kannn. So igtkan dah besar ni takde la isu isu yg remeh temeh ni akan terjadi ehh makanya aku silap meramal donggg lagi banyak ghupernyaaaaa hahahaha. So bila dpt problem yang mcm sekian sekian ni serious aku blurr gilaaa mcm taktau nak react mcm mana, nak solve mcm mana. Just go with the flow je la kan. Tula org kata, lagi byk hg teroka lg byk benda yg akn hg tahu so from that either you want accept it or not lah. Or the way you accept it. Tak semua benda kita boleh terima on time. Kena hadam slow slow dulu, kadang makan masa bertahun ye. Sebab semua benda yang berlaku ada reason dia, haaa reason dia tula kita susah nak comcludekan. Sometimes people akan memberontak why why why mcm tak boleh nak terima but the real is itu adalah takdir kita. Haaa kau tiba ckp pasal benda ni. Menyimpang jauh sgt dah. Eh dulikpe aku. hahaha. 

So disebabkan itu kita seharusnya sentiasa belajar untuk bersyukur senanya. Tengok la taktau la kenapa lately ni mcm suka sgt gambar yg filter dia kelam. Kelam mcm hati aku barangkali. hahahahah okay tak gurau je! 

"Call upon me, i will respond to you" Allah tu takkan biar kita sendiri, takkan biar kita sorang sorang walaupun kau rasa lonely. Yela tipu la kan tak pernah rasa mcm tu halahhh memg tipu besar la cite dia. Cuma nak pesan, apa pun dugaan yang kita hadap Allah always with you. And setiap kekurangan yang kita ada bukan ticket kita utk rasa jauh dgn Allah bukan bukan jgn sesekali rasa mcm tu. Setiap kekurangan yang kita ada tula sebenarnya Allah nak tunjuk betapa hebatnya manusia to overcome it. Lahhh manusia memang takkan sempurna pun to be honest. Entah la makin besar ni aku dah malas nak pikir. Yang penting sekarang kita kena sentiasa cari reda Allah, and rahmat daripada Dia. Sikit pun kau takkan rugi. 

Okay aku bukan ustajah nak bebel panjang lebaq pasal tajuk ni yang penting kita buat mana yang kita mampu dgn kudrat kita. AAAAAAAA GITUUUUU!!!!

Aku rasa hambarudin gila dohh entry aku hat ni. Hmmmmm skill menaip aku dah hilang la ni. Tula lama sangat hg tinggai kannn. Tiba tiba loghat utagha maghi. Padahal entry aku sebelum ni tak pernah pun aku ckp lagu ni. Parah ye parah! Dia punya pengaruh tu power betul.

Aku takde la nak cite panjang or banyak pun. Tapi sebab mcm byk gila small voices aku tapi aku taktau nak habaq kat siapa. Aku habaq sini ja la. Paling tak pun aku bosan aku baca balik. Hahahahhaha takpa biasa dah. Act time menulis ni pun aku masih bermonolog dlm hati. Bercakap dgn diri sendiri. Like, bila hg nak jadi kaya? Bila hg nak kawin? Bila hg nak itu ini la bla bla bla.... eh penat tau bermonolog ni! GENTLE GUA CAKAP! ahhahhaha. Seolah mcm ada another soul dlm badan aku haaaaa ayokkkkk hahahaha takde lah. Just kdg tu terlalu catch feeling sgt on something padahal benda tu takde la serious mana pun kan. Takpa sis okay jaaa! 

Cakap pasal another soul ni kan, haaaa takde pape pun! Btw blog aku ni more kepada life story aku je. How i overcome it, how the journey it was, and ada tu sampai aku rasa kat blog ni la tempat aku luah semua benda termasuk la happy marah sedih. Hahahahahhah mcm dah takde member kan. Tapi yang membezakan act, bila kita open up with a person or people, they will never understand what actually we felt walaupun diorg ckp takpa aku faham. No you are not! You are not in my shoes. Sebab org kata luah supaya kau lega. Tapi kalau kau jenis person yg luah and kau nak solution baik la kau senyap kau ngadu jela kat Tuhan. Dia lagi tahu segalanya. Cause people will never know how we feel tau. Tapi aku pulak ambik this medium utk aku luah kan semua benda. At least i throw it wihtout judgement. Yes org takkan judge! Mungkin sebab tu jugak aku suka menulis. hahahahah.

Another year older, gila la aku start buat blog ni tahun berapa tah and sampai sekarang minat tu still ada. Igtkan dah besar ni kau luah kat boypreng kau je hhahaahahaha eh boypreng pun takdakkkk!!! Haaaaaaa so memg disinila akhirnya tempat aku bertahkta hmmmm. Eh mcm dah banyak sangat je aku membebel ni. Walaupun pada hakikatnya ada banyak lagi isu yang aku nak kupas mcm kupas buah rambutan. Kronologi pun dah bersepah sepah dah. Takpa asalkan ampa paham naa. 

Haaaaaa ampa hadam la ayat yg kat gambar atas ni baik baik okay! Apa apa pun always be happy walaupun tak happy hahahah. Eh takde la jangan la mcm tu. Not good for our mental health. Selagi boleh cari solution, try je! You can do it!!! 

Sebelum kita menutup tirai kita untuk entry kalini, meh sini la saya belanja sikit gambaq hehehhe. Takpa guys, apa apa pun always be strong walaupun byk kali kau tersungkur! hah nasihat org pandai kau zaf bila kena kat batang hidung sendiri apa pun tak boleh haih!! letih la mcm ni. Nak jadi kucing laaaaa meowwww!!

See you again guys! 

 

Journey of 2019

Assalamualaikum and hi to all my readers, hmm rasanya macam dah lama sangat ni tak update blog. Last update sem lepas rasanya. Dia langsung tak teringat tu sebab sem ni ada fyp and intern. So thats why langsung tak sempat nak update or jenguk. Dia free masa week final je. Hehehehe. Time tu jela tiba tiba nak update blog la, nak edit video la, nak edit gambar la, nak betulkan laptop la, nak format la haa time tulaaa. Heh!!

Untuk entry kalini ni just nak share sepanajang perjalanan hidup 2019 ni. Hmmm rasanya tahun ni banyak sangat tragedi hah termasuk lah yang aku masuk hospital. HAHAHAHA sorry la lembik sangat masa tu. Tak tau nak kuat macam mana. Tapi takpa la ada hikmah semua yang jadi. Ye betul saya lebih kuat selepas itu!! hmmmm kot lah. Okay yang tu tak payah cerita further la, sebab sedih sangat. So kita move on. Selain dari tu gak, hmm masa intern i got job offer kat situ, boss suruh kerja terus kat situ tapi i kennot sebab i ada lagi semester nak kena habiskan. Tapi takpalaada rezeki tak kemana. Ye dok?? Lambat ke cepat ke in shaa Allah ada rezeki dia.

For who still stay with me, thank you sebab bersabar dengan aku! Thanks for not giving up with me. And sorry kalau aku memg ada buat sesiapa terasa especially my close friend. Im so sorry. Before this 2019 ends, i want to say sorry to all of you yang kenal i and yang i kenal, cause sometimes kita tak sedar kita dah buat orang sakit hati secara sengaja atau tak. Sebab tu kita tak boleh nak rasa yang kita sentiasa betul. Kadang benda mcm ni pun boleh jadi isu besar, sebab apa? Sebab kita tak rasa yang kita ni salah. Ye tak nak cakap lebih, tapi pada hakikatnya benda tu la yang berlaku, even to myself!

Actually, banyak je benda yang berlaku sepanjang tahun 2019 ni, kalau nak diceritakan satu persatu boleh dah buat novel rasanya. Just that i just make a summary so you guys take it as a lessons or just  bed time story. First of all, i learnt no too soft hearted. Hmmmm?? Acano tu eh? Okay macam ni lah, aku ni jenis dia cepat kesian even tak pernah pikir pun perasaan sendiri, tp yela aku rasa benda ni clishe, semua orang ada buat mcm tu kan. Tapi yela kita manusia, cepat ada perasaan kesian kat orang sebab kita rasa tak sampai hati. Secara logiknya, bila kita react macam tu, at the end kita akan rasa menyesal sebab bagi kita macam tak worth it pun. Yes! Kalau orang tu buat taik kat kita la cerita dia. Tapi semua orang tahu, kita tak boleh nak expect yang orang akan layan kita sama macam kita layan orang tu. Ok aku cakap general je okay. So bila kita expect too high, sumpah kita yang rasa sakit. Yes! Aku yakin semua orang tahu semua benda ni, tapi pada hakikatnya semua orang hanya tahu tp tk semua orang akan mampu buat secara consistent. Yang dimaksudkan secara consistent kat sini, untuk kita mengelakkan daripada hati kita sakit and dibuli je. Sometimes mesti kita rasa takapala biar jelah. Tu yang makin lama kita boleh tawar hati and tak ambil kisah langsung. So untuk mengelakkan benda mcm ni berlaku, kita ikut kemampuan kita and kita kena tgk effect dia macam mana. So korang kena fikir kedepan sikit lah.

Tu memang apa yang aku dapat concludekan kan untuk tahun ni. Actually takde bende sangat pun nak di share. Sebab semua orang ada perjalanan hidup masing masing yang lagi menarik dari aku. Cuma aku berharap kita takkan buat kesilapan yang sama! Menyesal kemudian hari dah tak berguna dah! Apa apa pun setiap apa yang berlaku semua bersebab, tak kisah la kecik ke besar semua ada sebab tersendiri. Percayalah! Kalau bukan sekarang, nanti!

Last but not least, jangan tinggal surah al-Mulk ye geng! in shaa Allah kita sentiasa di bawah lindunganNya. :)

Little do you know!

Good evening everyone! Welcome to my diary! :')

So, what topic that we are going to discuss for this entry? Hmm i really do not have any specific topic actually. But here we go! Little do you know that anxiety attack will ruin our life. Just want to share about this cause currently it often attack me immediately. Okay, anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome. I always feel nervous to do something that it rarely happen. Okay maksudnya, i akan selalu rasa nervous bila something tu jarang berlaku or selalu berlaku. Tak kisah la secara apa sekalipun. So benda tu sangat mengganggu mental kita. Then, anxiety can occur when a person fears that something bad is going to happen. It is a non-medical term that refers to a feeling of fear or worry that often relates to a particular issue or concern. Okay actually benda ni selalu terjadi like out of nowhere tau. Sometimes we never expect that feeling comes to attack us. 

So here i want to share the fast facts about anxiety :

•    An anxiety attack usually involves a fear of some specific occurrence or problem that could happen.  
•    Symptoms include worry, restlessness, and possibly physical symptoms, such as changes in heart rate.  
•    Anxiety is different from a panic attack, but it can occur as part of an anxiety or panic disorder.

Just want to say, semua facts kat atas tu semua i pernah alami. Since when pun i tak sedar. Sebab dulu i tak pernah rasa macam ni. Sehingga lah i went to the clinic and doctor said "you have an anxiety girl!" hmmmm i was like, seriously? 

So, anxiety ni can be a response to a specific worry or fear. It tends to develop gradually, and a person is usually worried or concerned at the outset. It can be mild, moderate or severe. Yang ni terpulang la untuk setiap individu tahap dia macam mana. So there may be a sense that if only this problem can be solved, everything will be all right.

So the question is, can anxiety lead to panic?

* A person who has panic disorder may experience anxiety that they are going to have a panic attack. The uncertainty about if or when an attack is going to happen can lead to anxiety between attacks. For a person with panic disorder, anxiety may trigger a panic attack. The fear of having a panic attack can affect the person's behavior and ability to function in daily life. The APA suggest there may be a biological factor underlying panic disorder, but scientists have not yet identified a specific marker.*

Yes exactly true! Cuma beza dia, anxiety can occur in a specific situation but panic disorder will starts suddenly. But both of them are dangerous if we cant control it.

So you guys can check if you have a symptoms below :

• worry and apprehension
• restlessness
• sleep problems
• difficulty concentrating
• irritability
• sadness
• feeling pressure and hurried
• Physical symptoms include:
• changes in heart rate
• tension in the head or neck
• headache
• nausea or diarrhea
• sweating
• dry mouth
• tightness in the throat and difficulty breathing
• trembling or shaking
• feeling faint

Not every case of anxiety will include all these symptoms. So as i said before, anxiety can be mild, moderate, or severe, depending on the trigger and how the person reacts to it.

Anxiety often results from stress or feeling overwhelmed.

Common causes of anxiety include :

• work pressure
• financial pressure
• family or relationships problems
• divorce, separation, or bereavement
• concerns about parenthood or being a caregiver
• problems coping with administrative issues or technology
• changing life situations, such as moving house or changing jobs
• reduced mobility or physical function
• loss of mental function, for example, short-term memory
• having a diagnosis of a chronic health condition, such as multiple sclerosis (MS), diabetes, and others

It can also will be a factor or health condition, such as:

• social or another phobia
• obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD)
• post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
• genetic factors
• major stress or susceptibility to stress
• changes in the brain
• a history of drug or alcohol abuse
• excessive caffeine use
• the use of some medications
• a recent or past traumatic experience

Triggers of anxiety could include:

• public speaking
• exposure to a phobia trigger
• a fear of having a panic attack

Sometimes, anxiety can also stem from a psychological disorder. 

But, for your information there are a few types of anxiety which are :

Panic disorder (PD): This involves at least two panic attacks accompanied by the constant fear of future attacks. People with panic disorder may lose a job, refuse to travel or leave their home, or completely avoid anything they believe will trigger an attack of anxiety.

Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD): This is a constant state of worry about a number of events or activities in the persons life.

Phobic disorder: This features an incapacitating and irrational fear of an object or situation, for example, a fear of spiders or open spaces (claustrophobia). Most adults with phobic disorder are aware that their fear is irrational.

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD): This condition is marked by unwanted repeated thoughts (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsions).

Unfortunately, all of these disorder, there are also have some of complications. 

The response that leads to stress and anxiety is designed to help us cope in difficult situations that arise temporarily.

Adrenaline is the hormone involved in the fight-or-flight response. A sudden release of this hormone prepares the body to flee from danger or to confront the danger physically.

Under normal conditions, adrenaline levels quickly revert to normal once the fear is removed. However, if anxiety continues and adrenaline levels remain high, further problems can arise.

Persistent stress and anxiety can lead to other problems, such as:

• depression
• an anxiety disorder

Ongoing stress has been linked to problems with the immune, digestive, sleep, and reproductive systems.

Physical health problems that may arise include:

• frequent colds and infections
• heart disease
• high blood pressure
• diabetes

So it is important to take action or seek help to reduce stress and anxiety if it becomes overwhelming or persistent. Really important!!!!!!!

Okay, here some of tips for managing stress and anxiety include :

Know the signs: If you know when to recognize the signs that you are stressed or overly anxious, you may be able to take some action. Headaches, an inability to sleep, or overeating may all be signs that it is time to take a break or ask for help.

Know your triggers: If you can learn to recognize what makes you feel anxious, you may be able to take action. Perhaps you have taken on too many tasks? Can you ask someone to help? Does coffee or alcohol make it worse? Consider cutting down.

Diet: A busy lifestyle can result in too much fast food or too little exercise. Try to make time to sit down to a healthful meal, or take a home-made lunch with plenty of fresh fruit and vegetables to the office, instead of grabbing a burger.

Exercise: Sitting for long periods in front of a computer screen or while driving takes its toll. Try taking a 30-minute break and take a walk a day to boost your sense of wellbeing.

Learn some relaxation techniques: Yoga breathing, meditation, and other strategies can help reduce stress and anxiety. There is some evidence that the use of aromatherapy may help reduce stress, although further research is needed.

Try a new activity: Music, meditation, gardening, or joining a choir, yoga, pilates, or other group can ease stress and take your mind off your worries for a while. You may meet people with similar concerns who you can share your feelings with.

Be social: Spend time with friends and family, or find a group where you can meet others, for example, by volunteering or joining a support group. You may find they can provide emotional and practical support, as well as taking your mind off the problem at hand.

Set goals: If you are feeling overwhelmed with financial or administrative problems, for example, sit down and make a plan. Set targets and priorities and check them off as you resolve them. A plan will also help you say "no" to additional requests from others that you do not have time for.

Treatment options for anxiety and related problems include:

• cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT)
• medications, such as some types of antidepressants
• support groups for people with specific conditions

Anyone who feels overwhelmed by stress or anxiety should see a health professional for advice. Getting help early may help prevent other problems from arising.

If you are considering seeking professional help, it is important to see a properly trained and qualified person!!!!!

So guys, jangan biarkan ia melarat sekiranya anda mengalami antara symptoms diatas okay! Prevent better than cure!!!!

Okay tak habis lagi okay!

Anxiety also can attack some our part of body!

Anxiety can have a significant effect on the body, and long-term anxiety increases the risk of developing chronic physical conditions.

The medical community suspects that anxiety develops in the amygdala, an area of the brain that manages emotional responses.

When a person becomes anxious, stressed, or frightened, the brain sends signals to other parts of the body. The signals communicate that the body should prepare to fight or flee.

The body responds, for example, by releasing adrenaline and cortisol, which many describe as stress hormones.

The fight or flight response is useful when confronting an aggressive person, but it is less helpful when going for a job interview or giving a presentation. Also, it is not healthy for this response to persist in the long term.

Some of the ways that anxiety affects the body include:

Breathing and respiratory changes

During periods of anxiety, a person's breathing may become rapid and shallow, which is called hyperventilation.

Hyperventilation allows the lungs to take in more oxygen and transport it around the body quickly. Extra oxygen helps the body prepare to fight or flee.

Hyperventilation can make people feel like they are not getting enough oxygen and they may gasp for breath. This can worsen hyperventilation and its symptoms, which include:

• dizziness
• feeling faint
• light headedness
• tingling
• weakness

Banyak kali i kena attack hyperventilate this year!!! So hmmm i dont know how to say lah!!! 

Cardiovascular system response

Anxiety can cause changes to the heart rate and the circulation of blood throughout the body.

A faster heart rate makes it easier to flee or fight, while increased blood flow brings fresh oxygen and nutrients to the muscles.

When blood vessels narrow, this is called vasoconstriction, and it can affect body temperature. People often experience hot flashes as a result of vasoconstriction.

In response, the body sweats to cool down. This can sometimes be too effective and make a person feel cold.

Long-term anxiety may not be good for the cardiovascular system and heart health. Some studies suggest that anxiety increases the risk of heart diseases in otherwise healthy people.

Impaired immune function

In the short-term, anxiety boosts the immune system's responses. However, prolonged anxiety can have the opposite effect.

Cortisol prevents the release of substances that cause inflammation, and it turns off aspects of the immune system that fight infections, impairing the body's natural immune response.

People with chronic anxiety disorders may be more likely to get the common cold, the flu, and other types of infection.

Okay ini antara effects anxiety for our body!!! Bahaya bukan?? Actually tak expect boleh jadi seteruk ini dia punya effects. Tapi yang i tahu kalau kita tak control anxiety our mental la akan effect lagi teruk! Hmmmmmmmm. 

Alright! Meh sini i nak kasi tahu sikit the statistic people got this disorder.

Depression is the leading cause of disability worldwide. Almost 75% of people with mental disorders remain untreated in developing countries with almost 1 million people taking their lives each year. In addition, according to the World Health Organization (WHO), 1 in 13 globally suffers from anxiety. The WHO reports that anxiety disorders are the most common mental disorders worldwide with specific phobia, major depressive disorder and social phobia being the most common anxiety disorders.

Dia kan bila dah sampai jadi major and common tu ushh tak tahu lah i nak kata rileks la semua orang kena hahahha its not a joke girl!!!

But, anxiety disorders affect 25.1% of children between 13 and 18 years old. Research shows that untreated children with anxiety disorders are at higher risk to perform poorly in school, miss out on important social experiences, and engage in substance abuse. See? Budak lagi dah kena anxiety attack. Apatah lagi umur macam i ni haaa. 

Okay now i nak share statistic from National Institue of Mental Health among adults.

Prevalence of Any Anxiety Disorder Among Adults

• Based on diagnostic interview data from the National Comorbidity Study Replication (NCS-R), Figure 1 shows past year prevalence of any anxiety disorder among U.S. adults aged 18 or older.

            *An estimated 19.1% of U.S. adults had any anxiety disorder in the past year. 

            *Past year prevalence of any anxiety disorder was higher for females (23.4%) than for                  males (14.3%)

            *An estimated 31.1% of U.S. adults experience any anxiety disorder at some time in                      their lives.

Okay yang itu baru 2001 until 2003. Chart ni akan increase year by year and it happen majority range 17-18 years old. I hope you guys can handle before it become worst!

Did You Know guys?

• Anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness in the U.S., affecting 40 million adults in the United States age 18 and older, or 18.1% of the population every year.
• Anxiety disorders are highly treatable, yet only 36.9% of those suffering receive treatment.
• People with an anxiety disorder are three to five times more likely to go to the doctor and six times more likely to be hospitalized for psychiatric disorders than those who do not suffer from anxiety disorders.
• Anxiety disorders develop from a complex set of risk factors, including genetics, brain chemistry, personality, and life events.

FACTS ABOUT STATISTIC!

Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)
GAD affects 6.8 million adults, or 3.1% of the U.S. population, yet only 43.2% are receiving treatment.
Women are twice as likely to be affected as men. GAD often co-occurs with major depression.

Panic Disorder (PD)
PD affects 6 million adults, or 2.7% of the U.S. population.
Women are twice as likely to be affected as men.

Specific Phobias
Specific phobias affect 19 million adults, or 8.7% of the U.S. population.
Women are twice as likely to be affected as men.
Symptoms typically begin in childhood; the average age-of-onset is 7 years old.
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) and posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) are closely related to anxiety disorders, which some may experience at the same time, along with depression.

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
OCD affects 2.2 million adults, or 1.0% of the U.S. population.
OCD is equally common among men and women.
The average age of onset is 19, with 25 percent of cases occurring by age 14. One-third of affected adults first experienced symptoms in childhood.

So as a conlusion guys, if there anything happen just tell to your close people!!!

Thanks for reading! Love yaa :-*