This is real

No matter how many times you hurt please remember there are always be a reason. No matter what you had been through in your life there are always be a reason. It depends on us how the way we accept and learn it. Sometimes we didnt realized how amazing this life actually but if we were always make a comparison with others for sure you cant to feel grateful with what you had. So life is simple and make it easy. Understand yourself while they didnt, understand what yourself want while they didnt, and yes make a true decision in your diary while they didnt! Having family, friends and lover are very sweet memories we ever had. But the main point is, make them understand you. Make them feel comfortable with you even you feel you are weird. No one can know what you feel until you realize they are soo important to you. I realized i had made a mistake in friendship relationship. Both of them were really important to me. I knew it.

Sometimes i really want to go to the fantasy world where there i can find my the other world. Sounds so funny but i really wish i can go there even for a second. Yeaa i know maybe semua orang ada keinginan mcm apa yang i rasa but semua tu akan berbeza pendapat. Even boys or girls semua orang ada pendapat masing masing dan mungkin jugak akan bercanggah. But then i cant deny it all of them are power and have their own reason and opinion. Okay i just nak sampaikan kat sini, our life is real. Dont waste your time with nothing! We live not pleased everyone. 

Boleh ke someone lari daripada berfikir? Like can we stop thinking? Sometimes i feel tired to do that. The things that i should not to think. 

Boleh ke someone just keep silent on everything they do? Just impressed with yourself and your close people.

Boleh kes someone just ignore whatever comes in their life? No its just statement that should no to answer.

I feel tired. Tired for everything. I feel i want giving up. Giving up with something not clearly.

Well, its life! Setiap ujian yang kita hadapi akan lebih mematangkan kita. Yea i should admit that i really need to behave and change to be a better. I found that myself also had bad habit that i cant control it. Just most of them noticed that. 

I really sorry if my presence was a burden for you. I really sorry if my presence make you felt hurt. 

Having all of you in my life such a big present that i cant describe into words. I just want you to understand how was i am. Truely honestly and kindly...

Sacrifice with something that very worth, its completely spectacular. 

Make them feel lovely. Make them feel hard to forget you. And if many hearts together as one, its surely fascinating! I wish for that one find day.

I cant control myself right now to write up all those feelings to make me feel better. Only this as a medium that i can threw all fucking feelings and i dont want to remember again. Its only make me feel hurt.

I dont know why, but the Professor Dumbledore's character has much impact on me. Even its not real, but there are something that can be conclude. So whats happening inside is not same. Everything what will happen out there is more challenging than what we think. Get ready in everyside of yourself. 

So here i want to remind myself again just be what you want keep your feeling smartly and respect others decision.


  “Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.” -The Goblet of Fire

"What's comin' will come, an' we'll meet it when it does." –The Goblet of Fire

“But you know, happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” Yes!

"It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to our enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends."

“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.”  –The Philosopher’s Stone 

Sometimes life just not unfair cruel but this is a fact. We really need to survive. No matter what dont lose hope dear. If you feel uncomfortable and want to express your feeling make up a diary! It feels better after that. Its works to me. And go find someone that close to you that you can share everything with. Life is amazing. Life is adventure. Explore them until you satisfied.